My eyes...

It's so hard to get starting to type... To write something... To complete a sentence in my mind and then put it on the screen... My eyelids closing with drug-induced sleep which is not sleep, I feel awake but my eyes want to close and then... Then what? Dream about something I won't remember even 5 seconds after I wake up with the alarms buzzing and beeping and screaming into my ears? It's so hard to put two and two together and come up with a description of the massive scene in my mind, leave alone a story plot... My eyes really want to close all by themselves so I do, my mind is numb but still running fast, no satisfying sleep is anywhere near. It's more like passing out eventually...